He Doesn’t See Her

He sleeps as she lays awake in bed

he Doesn’t see her as the loneliness washes over her once again

In the darkness of the day she had just lived.

She yearns for him to want her

Washing the dishes he left by the bed

Wondering how to calm the thoughts in her head

That come crashing in as she pushes them away

“Its just another day” she’ll say

Turning the channel from love songs to politics

fighting the same battles from the start of time

She takes a deep breath and looks around her

the emptiness becoming more apparent as the world spins

eighty degrees yet shes still cold somehow

but his arms never find her, she grabs a sweater and a sip of wine

for just a small taste of sweetness, in a world of bland

he doesn’t see her hair done, her eyes lined in black, lips bright red

just for him

as he walks quietly by her.

Juxtaposition of opposing views

from cubicles and computers to compassion and care

how could it ever work?

She closes her eyes and pushes past the loss of herself

until that one song, thought or memory hits hard out of no where

unwelcome, there’s no room left for anymore hurt

as the screams radiate from the other room

reminding her of her place in this world

caring for everyone but her.

She just wants to be seen as the walls close in

and she forgets once again…

As he passes her while she struggles before him

But he doesn’t see her.

Just asks her to warm up his meal.

He doesn’t see her giving up.

as she grabs his plate to warm it silently.

Hurting

Surviving.

Not sleeping.

He doesnt see the broken.

He sees the mess in the corner

the bills on the table the continue to pileup

sees his work to do list

the ten pounds shes gained

“you need to lose weight”

As she picks his socks up off the floor.

He doesn’t see her

Missing meals from the busy

The yearning for some sort of connection.

But he doesnt see her screaming inside

a face of composure as she fears her heart is beyond mending

he doesnt see her running. Hiding. Searching for safety.

he doesnt see her

 

 

 

 

 

6 thoughts on “He Doesn’t See Her

  1. …. He wipes her tears. He knows she needs the 10 extra lbs, because she never has time to sit & eat. He hears her pain whisper, and kisses her forehead. He knows her beauty, and her strength. He appreciates her sacrifice. He tells her shes one in a million, and perfect by all means. He carries her burdens, and heals her soul…He has made her perfect in His image.
    xoxo, God

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    1. “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat, or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens: the neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!” ( Luke 12:22-24)

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